The Best I Can Do Now我能做的

dear d. a.,
it's been quite awhile since i've written you a letter. i must say that after all those times we've been apart you're still the one i'm longing for. you see, life has never been the same without you. every day and every night, i fight this feeling, but try as i might, i can't win. it seems like you've captured my heart and my heart won't be able to escape from your grasp. every morning when the sun goes out to shine, i flash a smile but deep inside, i feel so sad and lonely and all i'm thinking is that i need you here and now.
i have regrets - regrets of why i let you go. but the sad fact is that you never tried or attempted to straighten things out between us. you never tried to fight for our love. maybe because you never really loved me at all. and it pained me the most to know that you can envision your life without me. where have gone all those promises you once said? i guess promises are really made to be broken. you made me believe that. and so, the best thing to do right now would be to miss you ... no more, no less. i just pray that somehow this heart of mine would learn to be contented - contented to be just missing you.
love always,
lic